How to fall in love with the gorgeous body the universe gave you

When we’re stuck in the diet/binge cycle, it’s often because we’re attached to our emaciated self. The way we look after starving ourselves for weeks. The euphoria of  being able to wear our skinny clothes again, friends and family telling us “You look great!” Actually wanting to go out on dates, show yourself in public, take on the world! 

We feel so amazing, we tell ourselves that this time we succeeded! This time we’ll look like this forever. That we’ll never go back. 

But we always go back. Eventually our body finally screams “ENOUGH!” and forces us to start eating, ravenously again. We gradually gain back our starvation weight. We blame ourselves. For being weak. For having too little willpower. For failing, once again. 

It took me 15 years to realize that my failure was not overeating, but rather obsessing over a body type I was never meant to have. My body knew this intuitively.  My impulse to binge was not because I was weak. It was my body being strong, rebellious, rejecting a standard of beauty designed by the patriarchy to keep us submissive. 

My liberation came when I accepted my natural body type, the body type of my ancestors. It wasn’t easy, and took months of reprogramming my brain. Learning to feel beautiful all the F-ing time, not only when my rib bones protruded. 

It took me writing post-it notes with phrases that felt like lies: “I am gorgeous” , “My body is perfect”, and “I am a glowing goddess”.  Posting them around my room, and saying them to myself for months even though they made me cringe. But as time went on, I winced less and less, and eventually I began to believe them. 

Once I fell in love with the body that the universe gave me, I was able to start nourishing it, rather than trying to distort it into something it was never designed to be.  And once I started nourishing my body, everything else slipped into place.  

I was able to think outside my myopic obsession with my body and focus on what mattered to my soul: my relationships, my creativity, and my passion for repairing the world. 

Wishing all of you goddesses a season of love and acceptance for exactly the way you are, today and every day 💜💜💜